I wish I had a real update in me because there’s so much to say, but I don’t have the time or the energy. Still, I wanted to thank you all for the love, and to tell you that unless things turn around drastically, Sailor will come home with us either tomorrow night or Saturday morning.
L called at 10pm last night, and we’ve taken turns there with her since then. I was there until 4am, and J was there until noon. We were back and forth all day. Spending this time with L has been profound. Walking with her through her grief has been one of the hardest, most humbling experiences of my life. I will do it the honor of writing about it at some point. In the meantime: L is strong beyond measure, and I am proud to know her. But empathy and open adoption are a crushing duo.
J and I love that little boy something fierce. He is small and beautiful and strong. I can’t wait to know him better, and to tell you all about him as I learn.
It’s insane to imagine going home. We had planned to spend this weekend preparing for him, so nothing is ready. We are going to need some help. (People have already been helping).
Love you guys. Happy Thanksgiving to you all. It’s my favorite holiday; now for whole new reasons.